One Day you are fine. The next You’re Not. One minute you’re okay. The next you’re not. You can remember being okay yesterday. You can remember being fine a moment ago. But, why aren’t you okay? Honestly, who knows you just go from happy to not and you don’t know what sent you there. Some days you can’t convince yourself to get up. Others, you are speeding around getting everything done. Some days you have 1 episode other days you have 20+ episodes. Some days you are motivated and some you are depressed. Some days you are everything, some days you are nothing. Most days you just wish it would stop, some you wish it wouldn’t.
A few days ago I realized that this doesn’t have to be my weakness, I can make it my strength. I’ve always had a need for helping people but could never quite find anything to fill that need bit. Maybe just maybe this is it. Maybe this amazing journey I am on was my path all along. Maybe I had to get low so I could really see the light and really notice how bright it could shine for me.
I have conquered some of my biggest fears in the last few months and had anyone told me that I would actually be Pouring my heart out and posting it on the internet for the world to see I would have told them I didn’t believe them. I would’ve said that’s too hard, that’s too scary, I can’t possibly do that. But, here I am a couple posts in and getting more comfortable (kinda) each time.
To each and every one of you reading this, Keep Dreaming, Keep Trying, Keep Doing. I promise one day you will find your place in this world. It might take longer we would like but it will happen!!